Posts Tagged ‘social’

What is the worst thing that you did to your friends???

Hmm… well in my case.. usually some of my so called friends have done something which ended up my worst act to them…. being to shut them out of my life, hoping for me to forget all there is about them. No word of goodbyes, communication, avoid and the worst part of me is keeping that hate inside of me, which I can never remove, no matter how I wanted to be… good.

“Friends don’t manipulate friends, they help each other” -The Vampire Diaries Katherine

The only thing that can free me from everything I hate and the people that caused it, is to leave them and forget, but as we know we can never forget all that has given us that impact to remind us of somethings. Only death can be done.

Though she sits alone in darkness, she prays for someone to love and be loved.

Loneliness is an unpleasant feeling in which a person experiences a strong sense of emptiness and solitude resulting from inadequate levels of social relationships. However, it is a subjective experience.[1] Loneliness has also been described as social pain – a psychological mechanism meant to alert an individual of undesired isolation and motivate her/him to seek social connections.[2] -reference

The word seems so familiar to me and yet seems strange.. that I had to look for a definition to it, just to understand. There are times that I do feel lonely, in spite the people around you, you still feel empty inside and practically dead.

I have checked my previous artworks, since most I’ve done reflects on how I feel and my mood. It’s true most that I wrote and done are about sadness and pain, but not because that I’m alone… it’s because of the people who caused me sadness that disappoints me from friendship and family… and only now I realize that I don’t think about living the rest of my life being alone, though I definitely feel it… I still hope and pray that someday I will meet a guy who will love me true and all that dreamy aspect of it.. or maybe my soul mate will come for me, but just died… who knows what each and everyone holds for their future.. Of course its sad and even scary to be alone, for it is every person fears it, other than death. But I guess the point of being alone is to understand deeper yourself and trying to change on how things would go and don’t let that loneliness pull you down or even lose yourself in the process for the sake of companionship.. for sometimes being alone gives you a peace of mind. It’s how you handle yourself, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.. never lose that hope of ever finding the right person for you and ….for me as well, but as we wait.. don’t think too much of it for True Love finds its way when it is the right time. It’s not to be rushed.  I know it sounds cliché , but that’s how life goes. Do not let other dreams held back in living your life to the fullest for we have only one. 

UPDATE: (June 3, 2011)
This article is about being alone in a sense of not having someone to love and wanted to be loved, a companionship, but just lately, I didn’t realize that there are people who do feel lonely, in a sense of sex… Man! (I’m such a… blank.) Yeah, I kinda understand that sense of depression or a problematic scenario, though I honestly can’t relate to that feeling since I never done it… the urge of having sex… it really doesn’t concern me.. I have my own problems which is more important than sex..
Anyway, I do know someone who take this problem way too seriously that often finds herself crying for she misses her ex-husband and “feeling lonely” that she’s afraid to be alone, (probably no sex for a long time). Me and other of her friends often tell her that she don’t need to think about those stuff, since she has a lot more important things.. like taking care of her daughter. But sometimes… no matter how we say the right thing or give good advice, in the end… we, ourselves are the ones who make a choice. To be happy or lonely.. is basically all in the mind. No one wants to be sad forever… and no one will.

*NOTE: I decided to write about being alone, since I read something of it…. maybe some people do feel lonely in a sense of a sex thing.