Posts Tagged ‘social relations’

There is something about him that I can’t seem to let go.

Trying to figure him out everything about him.

His moods. His attitude. The way he thinks.

Why am I so damn freakin attached??!!

Am I obssessed??

Am I so curious to know his character,

that I’m willing to be drawn to him??

Risking my values and traditions of the old ways

(sounds like LOTR) middle earth??

Sometimes I find myself being lost without him.

That I do not know if we part ways

I don’t want to be literally insane.

For I might lose my life.

It really doesn’t make sense,

why I am damn attracted!

I am like a snake that wraps around him.

but I don’t want him to suffucate by my obssessions.

That even the smallest behavior tends to give meaning

by my constant observations and analysis.

I’m afraid I might lose my pride

just to be close, even if I’m tired, I still go on.

But when I’m with him, I don’t feel tired like a heavy burden.

I feel normal, even if I lack sleep or my head hurts.

I just don’t know why!

I don’t want to be depended on someone,

whom I am not sure of what he thinks and feels for me.

I’m sure of I what I feel and it will never fade.

How about him?

For that is the question I truely seek

UPDATE: 02.15.12

Damn! After reading this again… way too extreme




Everyday, I struggle to be part of society by going to work. Dealing with all kinds of people and sometimes I just wanted to give up, hide myself where I don’t want to know anyone. Sometimes, people are cruel and I really can’t stand it. I know I have to be strong, never cry for they see it, they think that I am weak. The only reason why I cry is that I really can’t say or do things I want, even to defend myself for reasoning. I control my anger, my frustrations, my disappointment sometimes to the people I work with. What I think of them and some situations that has falls on me. All of these are kept hidden inside me and the only thing I let out is tears.

They are nice, but trustworthy… not. You can’t avoid competitions, proving that they are the best in what they do, know-it all and famous closer to the boss. Competitions even if there isn’t. I really don’t care if I’m the best or not in what I do, I’m just doing my job, making ends meet and live through the day each day. I have no intentions of superiorities, kissing ass or making myself be favorable. I just mind my own business when I work.

Gossips, bullying, harassment, back stabbing, subordinating and sabotage one colleague can be experience in a work place depending in what kind of people you work with. We really can’t avoid those kind no matter we mean no harm. I guess some people just seems threaten of ever knowing one capabilities really are. They try to limit information that would help each others of doing a better job performance. They didn’t realize that not only their colleague’s performance fails but the company as well, for they hinder the growth of making progress…

Sometimes, knowing what your colleagues are doing, just seems sad and it’s hard to brush it aside for you realize their character. We are all doing our jobs and want the same thing – and that is to progress, respect and feel self-worthy in a company. If people are always feeling threaten or envy by each other… who is to suffer in the end? … cooperation among piers and helping each other out is the key to have a good work environment.

… I do believe in Karma and the manner on how you treat others, will surely get back at you, one way or the other.

The way to be progressive is bring those who is helping with you go up, not pull them down, just to make them a step-ladder in your personal gain.