Posts Tagged ‘lonely’

Though she sits alone in darkness, she prays for someone to love and be loved.

Loneliness is an unpleasant feeling in which a person experiences a strong sense of emptiness and solitude resulting from inadequate levels of social relationships. However, it is a subjective experience.[1] Loneliness has also been described as social pain – a psychological mechanism meant to alert an individual of undesired isolation and motivate her/him to seek social connections.[2] -reference

The word seems so familiar to me and yet seems strange.. that I had to look for a definition to it, just to understand. There are times that I do feel lonely, in spite the people around you, you still feel empty inside and practically dead.

I have checked my previous artworks, since most I’ve done reflects on how I feel and my mood. It’s true most that I wrote and done are about sadness and pain, but not because that I’m alone… it’s because of the people who caused me sadness that disappoints me from friendship and family… and only now I realize that I don’t think about living the rest of my life being alone, though I definitely feel it… I still hope and pray that someday I will meet a guy who will love me true and all that dreamy aspect of it.. or maybe my soul mate will come for me, but just died… who knows what each and everyone holds for their future.. Of course its sad and even scary to be alone, for it is every person fears it, other than death. But I guess the point of being alone is to understand deeper yourself and trying to change on how things would go and don’t let that loneliness pull you down or even lose yourself in the process for the sake of companionship.. for sometimes being alone gives you a peace of mind. It’s how you handle yourself, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.. never lose that hope of ever finding the right person for you and ….for me as well, but as we wait.. don’t think too much of it for True Love finds its way when it is the right time. It’s not to be rushed.  I know it sounds cliché , but that’s how life goes. Do not let other dreams held back in living your life to the fullest for we have only one. 

UPDATE: (June 3, 2011)
This article is about being alone in a sense of not having someone to love and wanted to be loved, a companionship, but just lately, I didn’t realize that there are people who do feel lonely, in a sense of sex… Man! (I’m such a… blank.) Yeah, I kinda understand that sense of depression or a problematic scenario, though I honestly can’t relate to that feeling since I never done it… the urge of having sex… it really doesn’t concern me.. I have my own problems which is more important than sex..
Anyway, I do know someone who take this problem way too seriously that often finds herself crying for she misses her ex-husband and “feeling lonely” that she’s afraid to be alone, (probably no sex for a long time). Me and other of her friends often tell her that she don’t need to think about those stuff, since she has a lot more important things.. like taking care of her daughter. But sometimes… no matter how we say the right thing or give good advice, in the end… we, ourselves are the ones who make a choice. To be happy or lonely.. is basically all in the mind. No one wants to be sad forever… and no one will.

*NOTE: I decided to write about being alone, since I read something of it…. maybe some people do feel lonely in a sense of a sex thing.


Sometimes words can’t express what we feel and think.. so we tend to keep it to ourselves and hide all the sorrows inside..
They say the eyes is the window of one’s soul. It’s also the foundation of ones character and expressions.

I saw this particular artist’s site.. in Deviant and I thought to myself “If only I could have the things I want and with alot of time to spare, I could have made something that I love to do.. without the pressure of work ad be free. Sometimes… and that only means, sometimes…  I envy those artists who are really really good in both traditional and digital arts and
the people who have no obligations to provide but themselves, though I’m single without any children and never been married. I have an obligation for my mom.  I’m not complaining because I love her.. I only feel the burden that I carry sometimes. .

*Note: This image is somehow similar to my profile style, though I didn’t realize  what my thoughts are then. That time, I just feel like not showing my face.